Permission

Am I allowed to feel this certain way
Am I allowed to smile
At the messages being sent
Do I shut this conversation down
If I do
What will I do next
Am I allowed to laugh
At dirty jokes
Am I allowed to ignite
The conversations.

Is it okay for me to crave
Another human
Is it okay for me
To speak out
And tell you
How I truly feel
Without you asking me?
Am I allowed to do all
These things
Without my parent knowing
Of it.

Can I bend the rule
Instead of breaking it.
Can I peek into that life
You told me wasn’t good
For me.
Is it okay for me to want
To retaliate.
I don’t want to
get on your bad side.
But I just want
to feel a tiny bit of
Freedom.
Is that alright?