you dont feel the pain you sit and the worst takes place up in your mind. you may have been blessed with a loving family with friends that care. but you were given a load for you to carry one that has to be dropped along the road you've reached the drop off zone. yet you still carry the load. it has become part of you. people try to help you but you see them as a threat. so you push them away. you have become weary and weak you collapse on the floor you body has given up. you mind cant work over a body that has given up. years pass, you have recovered. you stay weary scared you will be caught and caged by your mind. you stay away from your old ways and old towns with triggers. your new life has began.